Ellie's Corner of the Internet

What is your self identity? What's the first thing that comes to mind? Probably your name right? But what if you don't identify with your name? Before you ask, this isn't some deep stuff and I'm not telling you I'm getting a penis. Genitals are weird and I don't need more things to worry about. No, what if you didn't feel that your name represented who you are and who you want to become? I have been identifying as a modified version of my name for years now: ELLIE After all, it is my corner of the internet here. But when I fill out a form or go to an appointment, that is not my legal name, I get called something else there. But I feel this weird sort of disconnect to my other name, I don't feel like it represents who I am and who I want to be. As for my last names (yes I have 2), they're both substantially long and when you put them together makes my full last name stupidly long. My last names are my mothers maiden name connected with a little hyph...

Guys, don't get a kitten . If I only ever offer one useful piece of advice, it's to get a cat that is at least a year old. At least. Did you know that cats can and will train humans? Yeah, and you won't even be aware of it.  I am in the process of trying to untrain myself and by extension, my cat. Let me preface this by saying that I love my cats, I really do. But sometimes she makes me want to punch myself in the face as hard as I can. The other one, he's a perfect lil angel.  All joking aside, there is no learning with cats. There is: I can do this when my humans are around! And there is: I should not do this when my humans are around. And the final (and most annoying) category is: I'm going to do this when my humans are around even though I shouldn't to prove a goddamn point. Cats are assholes.  When I wrote the first 3 sentences (important side note: I started this post when trying to untrain said cat and got 3 sentences in until I had to spend 4 hours fro...

It's so weird to me that you don't think about health until you're unhealthy. I never thought about health until mine was in jeopardy. This has been a big week of thinking about my health. Other than the fact that there's a worldwide pandemic going on and everybody is stressed, my health has been deteriorating. I've had to pursue specialist appointments because it has gotten to the point of not only impacting me but everyone around me as well.    Here's just some things that have happened for me in terms of health lately: 1. I have a requisition form for bloodwork. This is bloodwork to check 2 things, the first being my thyroid levels. I have hypothyroid and some of my symptoms have been resurfacing which leads me to believe that my medication is not working as effectively as before. The second thing it is looking for is rheumatoid arthritis. RA runs in my family and I've been having problems with my joints for years now but the issue with that is that the b...

Hello World, this is Ellie's Corner of the Internet.  You see, I have a lot to say and maybe not enough people to say these things to but I don't want people to feel like they're obligated to listen to me. This is my solution. The only people who will end up here will do so intentionally. The only people that will listen to my ramblings will do so intentionally.  I want to be heard but at the same time I want people to want to listen.  So here I am.  Are you willing to listen?